just when u think that breaks have done you in...

I tried to poison myself but lost the gall at the last moment...
As i gazed into the contents of the plastic cup that would end my misery on
earth - I wondered...

Perish the thought or at least keep it somewhere safe until u're really sure you need to...

Issue at hand:
My girlfriend feels that I may be losing interest in her or maybe she "thinks" I am having an affair with some other gal... as a result of my inability to call or communicate.
I couldn't actually stop laughing when she mentioned this - infact it still tickles my gall just to think about it - maybe it's God's way of cheering me up...

The truth is that I have been very insensitive to her. For some reason, I can't seem to get my self fired up enough to call her. Imagine that!
I want to lay the blame squarely at the feet of a lack of "gainful" employment but maybe the reason runs deeper - alot deeper than I am ready to admit.
I worry and worry that she may dump me for some well off bloke and maybe I'm the one leading her down that pathway of choice...

How long can a woman endure?

I'm in a runt and desperately need to get out - distance doesn't help the issue...
This is the Gal I plan to marry - Isha Allah...

later dudes...