A new beginning... or just a change in perspective?

Ladies, gents and others (let's not get too specific) I'm before you today - to do a summary of the week and months' end. I can't say that too much has happened and I won't say that nothing has happened. I'm here now but I wish I could have been else where... (it's my mood) (Mad rumblings in my head....) My mom will be around - apparently the potential that any thing could happen to my aunt was just too much to bear! I'm happy that the world is at peace but I wish she didn't have to come... (Do I sound ungrateful?) I just had to write something - my mind is actually in a rut but I'm determined to overcome! My sister was around today and she was the actual ray of sunshine in my life as usual. It's a goodthing that God made siblings otherwise the world would be full of single child families... To my friend: Chioma; I hope you can at least try to write. i'm not as exciting as many people but I at least try to be lively. I'm the guy you see in the mirror - What you see is what you get or something like that... I've started classifing people into groups, so far we have the: 1. Actuators. 2. Instigators. 3. Reactors. 4. Passives. The first two classes are the active class. they get things to happen as at and when due. They are what make the world a moving mass of action... the last two classes are just end or last mile. They either react only when they receive stimuli or they do nothing at all... I'm still working on refining the above definitions a bit so bear with me... August is almost done... I'm still hoping on better things to come - I can only cross my fingers and pray for the best... later as in: as soon as time permits... regards.

Life, life and them some...

hey...

You can get so side tracked by the way the days just zoom by you - one minute you're busy complaining about how time doesn't seem to move fast enough...
Then when you least expect it - wham! Nearly the end of the month...

I couldn't be happier (or more sad?)
Money is currently a concern - so is my aunt, who went in for a cancer operation last week.
I finally gathered the courage to go and see her. I was pleasantly suprised to see her hail and hearty - minus the complaint about the sharp pain in her back, she sounded and looked okay!

She'll be back with us by friday and her twentieth (20) wedding anniversary is for saturday.
I can only pray and wish for the best for her and the family (which incidentally includes me - so we're even).

Back to the money issue - I'm nearing broke and the cash flow forecast for the next month has my foot in my mouth... i can literally taste the dirt!

I have a number of ideas floating in my head but it still requires money to execute. The whole thing has me in stiches - not on the laughing side though! I only hope that the incidence of oppurtunity that I keep hearing about will come to my rescue...

My sister is in abuja for twelve days - so she says. I only hope that the little job she has for me will materialize before she heads out - by God's grace, that is...

As of now things couldn't be any more peachier... I'm happy (give or take, a few worries). My family is okay (give or take some small financial crisis) and the world is moving (give or take a few ecological disasters, terrorist attacks and the ususal bout of problems)...

If you could notice the entire reliance on God and chance - and you say I'm not into the spiritual?

Till I can be with you in words - let's remain in each others though processes (okay)...
Ciao

Let's do BLOOD!!!

Thought that would get your attention -(oops! the dizzy spell's on me again....)
I became a blood donor today and the sight of the slightly fat needle being stuck into my arm all but made me cringe... (I'm a man after all, you know!)

I could feel my vital life force leave me in subdividons of a pint (who ever invented that measurement unit was asking for trouble).

A scenario goes:

A guy walks into a bar and says to the waiter: Give me a pint.
Waiter goes: A pint of what?
Guy says: Just a pint.
By this time, waiter is at his teeters end and so out of frustration goes: A pint of piss, Blood, Vinegar etc...

Anyway, the whole exercise take like what, ten to fifteen minutes and they got one pint of blood and a lad whose lost half of his life juices...

I stay seated for five minutes and wonder if I'll ever see my mother again (of course, i will!)
In conclusion - I'm staggering out of the place with my aunty in tow and I'm happy they didn't ask for more...

The moral - give, give and keep giving...

Monday - the part of the week that challenges inertia - some people hate it so much and wish it was tuesday already, so that they can look forward to the weekend all over again...

I'm happy it's here and I'm even happier that it's almost over...
Till I can be with you in words - be good, play safe and all that...

ciao

Just couldn't let Go - Damn IT!

sayings, sayings and more sayings...

1. Let me guess...

The Lord arrested you but now you're on early parole...

2. Youth is the Age of science - though it appears to be a battle between Chemistry, Physics and Biology

That done - Hi!
So lovely to be here today, with the people I love hangin' out with the most - please don't be modest! I was so lonely, I decided to throw in a few words (begining to sound like alot but who's counting?)

Work's fine - couldn't be better - The sun shines brightly now (my point of view) and the world is at peace...

I've not written any proses for awhile so here goes; i hope you like it:


Love without evidence,
the Lot of man - I'm told.
Emotion without expression,
the beauty of being cold...

The bane of Humanity,
is people tryin' to be...
what they weren't cut out for -
that they cannot see!

Not much but then, I'm kind of rusty and did that one off the top of my head - a special shout out ot STAN and ELLIS, they define the true meaning of friendship and dedication, even when they have nothing to gain from it... that said (I hope there are no misty eyes out there)

Till we meet to meet and meet again
remember this isn't goodbye...

Back from the land of Chaos... in one piece!

My dear people...

I'm the sinner who must make up for his crimes (which by the way is fast becoming a loused up mess!) How can I abandon the most treasured populace that gives me so much release from my pent up emotions (currently heading out of control, I might add...)

Whazz's Up?
Apart from the sky (lousy weather but, I don't complain... ) For the last three days or so, the weather has been in a state of turmoil... Little drops of water, cascading in alternate patterns for the better part of three days (a little rain here, some there - you get the picture!) across the patterned landmass called abuja... (To be or not to be)

Was in Lagos for the First Bank test - talk of the mammoth crowd that stormed the venues (about three such locations) and the tests where held in different parts of the country!!!
Apparently, I'm only one of the many who've done the maths and are not very happy by the out come...

I went, I wrote - they have'nt graded yet! So my fate is as yet - undecided!
Also, I left my second mum in the hospital where I believe, she'll be better taken care of... The Incident scared the living jives out of our dance steps and we're yet to recover...

My sister came into town before my ship sailed out... She said she had been sick but she didn't appear to have lost any weight, so I will offer my thanks to GOD and move on to other matters.

I'm back in abuja - tail between my legs.
The big boss is out of town, so I'm stuck in 'do nothin' limbo till he gets back... I hope that'll be sooner than later.

How do you describe someone who mumbles to him/herself in a crowded room? Hmmm!
Get back to me on that, would you?

PS:

Some very nice people have decided to leave rather funny posts, I kinda like the jib... Pls keep the comm lines open - we're after all a community not a room of silent lunatics eh...

So my fishes, keep out of hot water and no matter what the chef says - don't believe him!

ciao babies...

Effects of depression...

here and now:

Yes... I admit that I don't keep appointments when and where due but I'm only human...

My errors are about to be rectified. I'm currently in lagos - that land of blissful chaos that sets the teeth of any persistent fellow on the EDGE - Permanently! (No Joke!)

History & Background:
Lagos - is a jungle, a dense city that supports an estimated population of ten(10) million people, in a very small space... It is ranked as the tenth most populous state in the world and the traffic situation here makes you swear never to drive a car throughout ya entire life...

People are naturally suspicious and are out to make a buck anyway that they can... The average joe - is looking for an oppurtunity to rip off an unsuspecting victim (who is refered to as a MUGU)

The state is located by the sea and is the major commercial hub of the country... That said we can go back to the issue at hand, which is:

I came in on sunday, after a very eventful journey - call it fate in action...

Anyway....

In lagos, I come across a depressed member of my family (not a direct relation) who due to the recent events in her life has taken the oath of non-communication...

The mentality it seems is: One step forward, then you throw the gear in reverse and keep it that way for a very long time.
Anyway, to say that I was nearly heart broken was putting it very mildly indeed. I grew up with this lady as my second mother - her home was my home... To see her in such a state was a shock!!!

I'm still trying to come to terms with her current state - I know that she'll overcome this but I'm scared shitless.
I feel so powerless, I can't seem to help her in any way. Maybe It's only a state of mind but by God - you have to have an experience like this to know what it feels like!!!

Anyway, I'm in town for the week - so I know that definite improvements Will come - the question's when.

On a bright note - Life's as it should be - Some good, some bad - some in between...

Later - as in 'soon'