Quest for that elusive something...

Reaching into the depths of the ordinary is the extra-ordinary waiting to happen...

If this sound like a motivational, self promotion guru tip then toss it out of the window so quick it wouldn't know its environment has just changed.

Alas - you can't and I don't blame you.
It is not your fault after all - some strange twist of fate got you into the mess and instead of getting down and dirty so you can pull yourself out of the shit hole - what do you do?

You go ahead and sit in your own shit and complain about the smell - Give me a break!

Life is this experience that you find yourself in - it is your own personal script and you're the director cum producer cum actor... the best part of it is that you are at liberty to improvise your parts - Play king or beggar, rich or poor man - the choice is yours and my suggestion to you is to grab it with both hands and run as if your life depended on it.

What's the purpose to your existence if you end up doing the same shit day in day out?
there must be something other than a repetitive 8 - 5 job tied to some lousy desk?

that's where my admiration for Steve Jobs and Bill Gates come in....
Call them whatever names light your rocket: SCREAMING CAPITALIST!
But please, I beg you to admire their spirit while in the pursuit of dreams until the dreams overtook and overshadowed their initial expectations...

Of course not every one of these guys is a success story today but in the long run - they pursued their dreams and THAT is what matters...

I would prefer to have tried and failed and learnt what I didn't do right than to NOT try at all...

That my friend is the school of hard knocks and there's no better teacher out there.

My quest is to discover self and my REAL purpose - that task lies completely in my hands...

A mad rush for the elusive...

It is 7:22 pm on a thursday evening - I'm sitting down at a colleague's desk strutting away at the keyboard trying to discover that hidden well of inspiration that is so often elusive...

It is also the 3rd of January, 2008 but you would be forgiven for not to knowing the difference - I'm back at the game of survival trying to wonder where the time for sober reflection dashed off to...
I did promise myself some time to recount and marshall out my plans for 2008 - I guess the year beat me to a flying start

I'm discovering the hidden wells that house my masked passions - I sometimes have to take restrictive decisions to escape from harms way... Especially since I knowingly put myself directly in her path on more occassions than I can recall.

How easy it is to fall prey to waton foolishness all in the name of having "fun".

I must also look at the ever recurring theme of personal finance - which often finds its way into the same sentence with money problems (mine at least).

Show me a man satisfied with his salary and I show you santa claus in mid June...

I'm still stuck in the runt of self discovery of my real, inner self - it may actually bear little or no resemblance to the real me but that was always a given.

Who am I?
Funny question begging for an answer - who is to know what the discovery will provide.

I often ask myself questions like: Chinedu is this/that really you?

I went to one of those personality sites that does free assessment of your personality type and I was categorized as an INFJ or something along those lines...

Complex explanation - they also mentioned that we're a rare breed. What do I know?

That said - I can only hope that this year will provide me with the cannon fodder required to fire my dreams into orbit and give me a chance to discover who I am and what I am really capable of. I plan to bust old expectations of me - old stereotypes of behaviour, less guarded, more bold and daring, more adventurous, more gusty...

As you can see from the list - I do have a long way to go.
I don't know the path to self discovery but I do know that the first step must come from me...

I must pursue my ideas, dreams and aspirations to the bitter end...