a weekend of thoughts and rest - the end of the line for the month of febuary

We are one day shy of the end of febuary.
In hind sight it was not one of the best months for business (mine at least) but i am thankful for the experience it has granted me...

Remember::

if it doesn't kill you - it makes you
stronger!

My girlfriend sent me a lengthy missal, admonishing me to keep the faith (literally) and to hold on - the part of her sermon that really got me was when she said and I quote: that I am beside you...

In case you're wondering - I fancy myself as some sort of word smith (I have to over indulge my mind otherwise it picks up on something else like worry) - so when she says that she's beside me and not behind - I'm somewhat comforted (she sounded like a guardian angel and maybe she is - mine at least!) as the phrase implies partnership and committment.

The weekend was fantastic simply because - i was allowed to rest and spend some quality time with my siblings (which for now include: two sisters, one brother and a cousin) - I helped my sister out with some work brought over from the office for the weekend and made up with another whose birthday fell on the 23rd of febuary...

Life is as it always has been - today a couple of smart asses came in and left without paying for service. I'm wondering if I look like some kind of charity organisation (maybe I do and I have to do something very drastic about the perception!)
Checklist: No more friendly smiles - frowns all the way!

Today still has me watching with some level of distrust the service we are receiving from our ISP but it's still better than having none...

The month of march is observed on the horizon with a great degree of longing and hope - I prefer to be proactive and therefore - I WILL be doing alot to better my situation as opposed to simply hoping that it improves (that's like the unspoken motto for the month of March:: Keep marching on!)

That said - I would like to thank my Girlfriend (Iphie) - the lifeline that i do not really deserve but I'm immensely grateful for (Bloody happy and estatic actually!).
She remains my lighthouse in the fog of opposition - percieved and imagined!)
Love her too much even if my lips don't get the words out as frequently as I would like (coming from a love shy ninny)

Thanks for the gift of "you"

Later denziens...

strain... using all the muscles but the one that matters.

Do you work harder or smarter? A really simple question but a question that nonetheless requires some explanation.

In the old days - you worked your way up the corporate ladder, being a jolly "good" fellow - doing what you were bidded to do until the moment became right for your next "promotion".

There was naked ambition which was normally displayed (depending on the desperation or cunning of the party involved) in any manner of ways: native devices (black african magic or voodoo), sabotage, eye or lip service etc...

But in today's fast paced society - the rules have gone to hell. it's now every man or woamn for "their" selves... Unholy hours in the work place, sacrifices that go above and beyond the call of duty, etc...

Are we alive to work ourselves to death for the sole benefit of the "Corporation" or to develop ourselves or is there some reasoning or logic that I'm missing?

If you happen to have an answer - any answer pls feel free to share it - I would be so very glad to learn something apart from my own point of view...

regards

what's to like in this crazy world of ours...

Hold the thought...

Have you ever felt that life was approaching an "out of control" status - like you are in the driver's seat of an express train heading for the cliff with no way to stop...

Welcome to life's class room - where the view is definitely better...
Some may say that it is a matter of perspective and I'm forced to agree - the glass is afterall either half full or half empty! in my case - I'm more inclined to half empty...
I have often asked myself if I am programmed to always worry about stuff like: jobs, girlfriend, future, siblings, money, influence etc...

Answer comes back as a resounding yes!

I've been offline for a week and i feel as if my life was put on pause...
I'm just starting to get my shit together and my gad - what a smell?

Our ISP is still giving me more heartaches than a stroke victim and I'm definitely resenting them - what's a struggling young man to do? When you don't succeed try and try again...

Anyway - I'm living the life I bargained for - I hope to strike a better bargain soon - till that happens, i'm in the pits doing the shits - hating the pain but doing it for gain...

outta 'ere
chinedu - something about a timeless mist...