the human mind - what's to like?

I've made a vow - that I intend to support charities and people in desperate situations/conditions - this decision was based on recent events, which occured on my way to work. I encountered a woman who had some very serious illness (I've refused to give it a name, even though one easily comes to mind.)

She was gaunt, to the point of looking like a scarecrow - railroad thin and with several abrasions or sores (i couldn't be too sure). She equally apperaed very weak and it took some effort from her and another fellow behind her to get on the bus to obalende. She was directed to a sit where she sat down and

On the bus, she sits silently (debating with herself on how to ask for financial assistance), whe she finally got the nerve - she started by asking those near her...

It became apparent that help was going to be sparse - although I gave her some cash, I felt very bad; No make that Rotten - I felt very rotten & troubled that I lacked the courage and moral conviction to help some more, maybe by being her voice - reaching out to the other commuters on the bus - which I'm very sure would have been a better form of assistance than giving her just cash.

Her case represents just one of the very many - society (made up of the likes of me), ignores and tries hard to deny the presence of such people because it's convenient to do so. We pretend they don't exist and do our best to give small meaningless sums of money to comfort our consciences - keep its yelp down to a manageable whisper...

Are we better for it or worse off?
It's a step in the direction of our "self destruction".
Our Humanity's on trial and is being compromised on the grounds of greed, selfish interests and self preservation but we're to blind to see because we like - no prefer chasing shadows - money, fame and fortune, wealth, beauty, clout etc [BullShit*@!] all for what? To what purpose or end?

I Have vowed to use my wealth and intelligence to serve people around me who need help, assistance...

I hope to stand by my words or I may have no honor left...

ciao people

Ps: keep the reason for the saeson firmly in mind - me, I plan to suck on the seeds of self inspection and internal examination - who knows what I'll see?

Regards

fresh week - christmas in the air?

fresh week or so I'm told...

I spent the weekend - spewing my guts out in the can! Sunday was recovery, i could hardly eat and what little food I could eat was soon down the toilet - water was my major sustainance (water therapy - anyone!)
I literally lost some vital pounds and now look like a gaunt scarecrow running on steriods...

Christmas week looms ahead and I still feel nothing - occassional flashes of nostalgia and hope fill my heart but they're but fleeting moments in th listless sand of time...

I don't know what I'm looking forward to but then again maybe I had better be someone's christmas wish - create some happiness in someone's life for a change!

There's a situation in my family that's currently testing the primary bonds - pride, fear and emotion laden moments that affect everyone of us directly!
Me, I'm the guy on the fence who has made a decision to let things unfold while making plans of his own - a wait, watch and counter reaction...

Business is-as-is... Progressing along a steady but tension filled path - if you like uncertainty then this is definitely for you...

just to call in - leave my foot print in the sand more or less...
ciao!

down in the pits - it definitely gets more interesting!

I slept in my friend cum partner's house - (the boss part is determined by who brings the cash, which leaves me out of the race)

But, I'm definitely finding it both fun and stressful - a mouthful by my account... We spend a better part of today waiting for the engineer who intends to install a linux setup box for routing functions - our cybercafe... We're beginning to roll - but for the minor interruptions, we're getting there - I notice a smile on chude's face - I consider that a good thing, his happy, I'm happy!

Things are definitely on the roll - on to better things, more shit but definitely worth the smell.

Next year, things will most definitely jump the gun - we're off to the racess with no looking back - I plan to be extremely comfortable by 30 yrs and to be totally off the financial struts of daily life by 35 (courtesy of GOD and a very healthy ambition, determination and persistence to succed against all odds - Independence; moral, economic, financial and in short: total liberty!)

Just wanted to thank God for the help - a little enouragement definitly goes a long way...

regards fellow denziens..